Even things I like, it can take me forever to do. Sometimes that should read, “Especially things I like…” I don’t know why, I don’t know what magical part of my brain is broken that makes me act this way, but it is. It says something along the lines of, “Don’t do (whatever it is), that will make (some horrific thing) happen.”
This is especially true of anything faith centered in my life.
I will fight so hard to keep from having to do whatever the task is for the dumbest reasons. “My energy level is already low, and that requires me to be around people. I’m introverted, so that’s a bad idea. I should just go home and sleep.”
This sounds logical. If say I’d been doing stuff all week and this would just be one more event on a list that kept me out all week, it would actually be wise and helpful. However, when the only thing you have planned all week is the thing you are trying to talk yourself out of, that is not healthy or good. This is usually when I say that to myself. (Oddly, when I have too much going on and this would be wise, that’s when I say, “Suck it up, this is important!”)
I love to write, it’s a passion of mine, and I need to get more healthy. These are two things I’ve been trying so hard to do, and feel so far off. I’ve changed two things recently though, and that seems to be helping.
- I’ve started having a “work night” with a colleague. We both have artistic endeavors totally unrelated to the office that we want to work on. On Mondays at 7pm, our work night starts. I make dinner, pack lunches (sometimes) and write until husband gets home from class. I finished Act 1 last week in my book. It took me 6 months. I’ve had it outlined all 6 months. (It actually took a year and a half, but it was only outlined the last 6 months.)
- I got a Fitbit Surge. Love them or hate them, the accountability of having a Fitbit on your wrist and friends who also have one is kind of a big deal. I was in a work week challenge the first week I got it, and did daily challenges on my own. My only issue is the band bothers my skin, so I’ve been taking it off on the weekend and nights that it really is bugging me. It’s not ideal, but it works.
What ways do you stay accountable on stuff you know you should be doing? Talk about it in the comments.